Month: July 2025

Cycles of Bitterness I’ve been in a bitter mindset the last couple days–you know that feeling where you keep thinking about things people have done in the past to hurt you and it’s like, kind of fun just to be bitter about it. It’s sort of like a temporary addiction, where it’s like you enjoy being bitter and running over negative things and thinking about how you should have handled it, how you should have spoken up, told someone off, cut them off etc. I’ll literally think to myself “i’m…

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What a Toothache Taught Me About the Limits of Inner Peace I’ve been meaning to talk about this for a few weeks, how I was quickly proven wrong about my own mental health and how I’ve kinda maybe been talking out my ass about how happy and zen I am.In previous entries, for like the last year, I kept talking about how great my life is and how I’ve reached this sense of zen and constant joy and love for life, and yes, that is still true. I’m still a…

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Just me rambling about a dream I had about Insane Clown Posse Had another crazy dream last night. This never used to happen back when I was a stoner.Dreamt I went to a party at some dirty house out in the suburbs and was hanging out and suddenly realized that it was at the parents house of the guys from Insane Clown Posse. I somehow recognized Violent J immediately. His voice and appearance and mannerisms were very crisp and clear in my dream. For some reason I decided I should…

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Image-making with Midjourney, the ideas I steal, and why I don’t believe in intellectual property. I always procrastinate, then finally get down to writing like half an hour before midnight/bedtime then get sucked into whatever nonsense I’m rambling on about then before I know it it’s 1:30 or 2:00 and I need to force myself to stop. Tonight is no different. I started posting all these free-write speed blog entries to Medium.com. But I was like, scared or something, like scared of losing steam, or maybe of the criticism or…

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