Month: May 2025

I just finished listening to A Perfect Union of Contrary Things, the biography of Maynard James Keenan, and like the vast majority of audio books that I listen to, I realize that hour per hour it adds an order of magnitude more value to my life than does TV (currently watching the 2024 season of Kitchen Nightmares) and video games (still playing through the new Doom). I’m thinking more and more about just quitting TV and video games almost entirely, or like by 95%, down to just special occasions. After…

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I watched a movie over the weekend called Eighth Grade written by Bo Burnham, whose this genius comedian/musician whose kind of on a whole other level of comedy… this movie wasn’t a comedy exactly though it was funny in parts… super awkward. I normally don’t like awkward movies but this one wasn’t like American Pie or Meet the Parents, it was a movie driven toward realism, like it could have been a completely true story down to nearly every detail. Hard to watch, but very very good. But I was…

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I just finished A Good Life, 15 essential habits for living with hope and joy by Pope Francis. I decided to buy it last night after my weird day of feeling like I was wasting my life, thinking it could bring me some motivation, and I think it worked. I’m still blown away by how much that guy just seems to understand how life really works. The fact that I don’t believe in God in a literal sense, it’s like that doesn’t seem to matter at all. I still pull…

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I’ve been really struggling this weekend with motivation. I guess there’s more important topics for me to write about, especially it being memorial day weekend so I should be talking about peace and my frustration with the whole rest of the country who seems to openly celebrate war and death and the us-vs-them culture that breeds hate for anyone who is not born on the same plot of land as you, and about how I, like so many other people attack the people who most reflect my own personality. I’ve…

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Okay, I am finally going to try to write this out, about how I want to hire someone to promote my content and app for me. This job would be open to… well the right person… hard to know who the right person is… you don’t need to agree with everything I say here of course, in fact I would want someone who can openly disagree with me and not feel uncomfortable about that.My budget is $600 per month. You wouldn’t be expected to work any more than 10 hours…

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Had a dream I was at a convention of some sort. I was in my hotel room and the lady in the room next to me was looking for someone to watch over her cat and couldn’t find anyone so I finally volunteered. The cat was in my room now and I went down to eat in the hotel restaurant. I come back and find that the cat had removed the screen from the window and almost fallen out. In the gap on the outside of the screen I remembered…

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woke up real early today. It’s 7:35 now. this not smoking weed thing really does reduce the amount of sleep I need.Had a dream last night that me and a small tactical team were stalking some bad guy. I’m sure this was inspired by the level I was playing last night in Terminator Resistance where you have to chase after The Infiltrator. First we were outside chasing and strategizing, each of us in a different spot, trying to head him off. One of the guys I’m working with is like…

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I told myself that I would write an entry today that progresses my goals. Specifically an entry outlining how I want to hire someone to do social media for me, and how I want it all to work, outlining my expectations, strategies and ideas for what I want them to do. Or if not, I have other entries i want to make that I feel are important to talk about, like one about my trauma surrounding police brutality and my cop cousin who assaulted me when I was about ten…

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I quit smoking pot two days ago after a quarter century of indulging pretty much daily. Feels kind of strange but not nearly as bad as I feared. This is my first time ever actually trying to quit. It’s not like the tobacco which I smoked for 20 years and every year I tried to quit a couple times. I must have tried to quit tobacco 40 some times before finally succeeding after reading The Easy Way to Stop Smoking by Allen Carr.But marijuana is different. I never felt bad…

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