Author: Kalin

I want to write about my web development career and the story of how everything started. In the past I think I’ve always wanted to tell stories from my past that had some sort of specific moral or political purpose, but now with this new format I feel like telling other types of side stories that might mean a lot to me personally but I guess… I’m not sure why I never told these types of positive stories–maybe that’s what it is–this story is almost all positive and joyful. Writing…

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Not sure what I’m here to talk about. It’s late. I try to go to bed at midnight but that’s a light try, a half-assed try. I have 23 minutes to.Roommate’s been playing Brotato all day long. The constant beat of that game is sinking into my soul, it’s right below me. She’s unlocked just about every item and still going. It’s on my account so I get all the achievements. Too bad I don’t care haha.I turned my XBox gamepass back on, saying it was just for one month.…

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I came to do a free write about any topic that comes to mind, specifically the book I just finished A Liberated Mind by Steven C Hayes. This was one of the best self help books I think I’ve ever read–or at least in the top 10% — or listened to — I wonder if people will call me out for saying I’ve read something when I really just listened to it.But anyway just before coming here I happened to be on facebook and saw an ex of mine posted…

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I was gonna talk about Tool’s Flood and the time I was sucked under a pile of logs on the Nooksack river–I guess that’s what I will talk about.Listening to Toadies Rubberneck. Suppose I should have Tool’s Undertow on right now but Toadies is cool too.Flood is about 4 minutes of a grinding, painful introduction followed by a moment of transition and revelation, continuing into an intense, increasingly complex and adrenaline fueled progressive rock masterpiece about a changing and twisting life perspective, surrounded in this metaphor where water is life,…

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I have so many things I want to talk about in this journal — writing in here is much like exercising for me. I never want to do it, but afterward I feel much better about myself and the universe around me. I guess one difference is that here once I start writing I never want to stop. It’s only the motivation to get started that’s an issue.But okay, let’s do the favorite song thing. I don’t know why but I just feel the need to write, like the universe…

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Gonna ramble about whatever comes to my mind today. I was going to write about my two favorite songs, Driving the Last Spike by Genesis and Flood by Tool, or at least they are the two songs that have probably had the deepest impact on my life and because this journal I’m doing is like I want it to be as much about joy as about pain. So often with me, and probably most other people who keep a journal, you come to your journal to get out your negative…

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Oh alcohol. I still drink to your health. I came to my computer tonight to write about alcohol because boy do I have a complicated relationship with it. I hate alcohol now but want to write my first time getting drunk as it was one of the most amazing and positive experiences I had as a teenager.I’m currently worried about a friend who has gone far too far down the booze rabbit hole.When an alcoholic has gone this far for so many years and destroyed their liver kidneys family and…

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Tonight I’m listening to an old cassette tape from my childhood that I haven’t listened to in at least 30 years. I must have been 8 or so I’m guessing. I can hear myself playing with one of the neighbors. I made him be the Soviet Union because I wanted to pretend war and wanted him to be the bad guy and wanted it to feel real even though I had no idea what the Soviet Union even was.so much joy I took from destruction. I can hear myself now…

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Golly how time flies and it’s been almost a week since I wrote here. I wanted to do this maybe three times a week on average. I have told myself that I need to come back here and write whenever I finish another book. I want to talk about every book that I listen to on audible to maximize their retention and positive impact on my life.Anyway, finished Hooked by Michael Moss and it was a fantastic book but I don’t really know what i can say other than I’m…

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Finished Getting To Yes today. This was a fantastic book. Prolly in the top 5% of the self help books I’ve listened to… at least for me. Maybe it’s cuz I always have had problems with emotions getting in the way of my personal negotiations and this instinct to think of my interactions with other people as being an us-vs-them kind of scenario, like even my romantic relationships in the past often felt like me vs her and I never knew how to steer the conversation back to a place…

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I’m sitting out in a hammock in the woods of West Virginia right now listening to Keith Urban in the foreground and a beautiful stream in the background and wanted to babble on about how incredible everything is. I think about that movie Office Space from time to time and that guy who was like “every day is just a little worse than the day before so every day of my life is literally the worst day of my life” and I remember seeing that back in the day and…

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Golly, been a week already since my “first” entry. I write this in VS code of all places because it’s easier than having separate apps for writing and coding and I don’t want to write JavaScript in MS word.But how I write is a boring topic and I want to keep this interesting and useful.I’m listening to Hooked by Michael Hoss on Audible right now “How the food industry exploits our addictions”.I’m struggling with a sugar addiction right now. I already cut out sodas and caffeine, most processed meats, most…

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Been thinking of maybe going back to my age old idea of making a public journal. Just write as fast as possible like I normally do in my private journal and just post. The public one could have comments but I wouldn’t respond to them unless it was like a weird special occasion.I know I’ve tried the social media thing over and over and over and it’s never worked, but you know, I do it differently every time and this idea is a bit different than what I’ve done in…

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